Sobrang kabad3p!

What if I showed U how I really felt inside 4 U then,

would I get a response?

If I asked U 2b with me,

Would U lay your head upon my shoulder?

If I loved U and unreluctantly just gave my all to U,

would it make U stay forever?

-These are the questions that bugged me when I’ve met U. But then, I’ve realized that you’re the one whom I’ve waited to be with. The one I’m willing to share my life with. The one i know if I’ve lost, half of my life will, too. It’s hard and I know it’s too late to say how I felt for U. But it’s much harder to just keep it inside. Hardest, is to just keep on pretending I’m ok, when the only thing that keeps my sanity intact, is that every minute of my everyday I spend just thinking of U. =,(

I was once unfaithful.

A person without direction.

I even hated life.

but then you came.

and suddenly, I was changed.

I became inspired.

I experienced bliss.

I wondered if you’d feel the same way too.

But I got scared.

I held back.

What if u cant love me back..?

What if u stay away and just break my heart..?

Coz to be loved by u is the SWEETEST THING,

but to be rejected by u would be the most painful DEATH.

“The best feeling in the world comes when u start feeling good again after feeling awful for a long time.” And im w8ng again 4 it 2 happen.

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun… Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed, This world you must’ve crossed… you said… You don’t know me, you don’t even care, You don’t know me, you don’t wear my chains… Essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across An open field, When flowers gaze at you… they’re not the only ones who cry When they see you You said… You don’t know me, you don’t even care, You don’t know me, you don’t wear my chains… She said I think I’ll go to Boston… I think I’ll start a new life, I think I’ll start it over, where no one knows my name, I’ll get out of California, I’m tired of the weather, I think I’ll get a lover and fly em out to Spain… I think I’ll go to Boston, I think that I’m just tired I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind… I think I need a sunrise, I’m tired of the sunset, I hear it’s nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice… Boston… where no one knows my name…

i think im just making fool of myself thinking that i cud be hired and work as a call center agent.. sigh..
and deep inside i know that i wouldnt be hired.. im nt really good in speaking english and im not fluent in it.. but i really want to work as a call center agent! maybe im foolish.. a dreamer… wat else would i call myself..? but ders something in me that says that i shud pursue really hard to achieve wat i want..a cliche.. but its right.. definitely and provenly right. so this is it, il apply today at taguig and i wish and i pray that i cud passed the interviews and exams 4 me to be hired so dat i cud train myself and work immediately! whew.. just thinking of it makes my heart pound..

We’ll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don’t need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They’re not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

Let’s waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see

I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Im so depressed ryt now coz im running out of money dat i will need 2 pay 4 my tuition fee this 2nd sem and i dont know wer will i get it… Im thinking and planning 2 work but i doubt dat i can manage my time with the subjects dat i will take this sem… Im so in a hurry ryt now 2 hav a work so i can supply all my needs.. Im so silly. I shud hav think of wat will happen if i spent all my allowance and hav nothing  at the end. My dad already gave me my allowance dats gud 4 1 year! its just half a way and its already gone! grrrrr! Im so mad @ myself! If i cud just turn back the time… I shud hav spent it wisely! I really dont know wer i spent dat or wat i bought dat made me broke! I shud hav listened 2 my mom… She had told me b4 dat i shud deposit it  @ the bank w/c i didnt do! of corz if i bring it der i cudnt buy and get wat i want! and dat was so WRONG! maybe im just so excited dat i had my biggest allowance ever in my life maybe yet the last.. but i wish not. ac2ually im planning 2 work @ starbucks as a barista but they prioritize the regular one and i cant be regular barista bcoz of my studies. and  dat made me dissapointed. Its really a tough challenge or i shud say the toughest challenge dat cme 2 me ever! God help me 2 make a ryt decision on how and wat will i do 2 hav a gud job so i cud save and hav money.. and now iv learned a lesson!

Sobrang bwisit ako sa tatay ko! pinapalayas ako sa bahay namin! kesho gabi na daw ako umuuwi,di daw ako nagaaral,di daw ako sumusnod sa kanila…eh anu pa ba ung ginagawa ko?!! sa mga nakakakilala sakin alam nio na mabait at masunurin akong anak..

ayun nsagot ko nga! napuno na ko eh.. minartilyo nia pintuan ko. binasa ung uni4rm na susuot ko bukas.. di ako natatakot lumayas dahil alam ko nman kung saan ako pupunta. sa mga bumabasa nito wag kayong matakot na sagutin magulang nio kung alam nio nman na tama kayo at wala kayong ginagawang masama. kailangan mailabas nio rin kung ano ung nasa saloobin nio. di ko sinasabing gayahin nio ko.. sinasabi ko lang na ito ang tama para sakin dahil lahat tayo ay may freedom of expression.